Everything lately has been going perfect.
I've had absolutely nothing to talk negatively about on here for a while.
Well, I have. I completely have, but the good outweighed the bad.
I actually had someone really there to help and offer ideas and give me their side.
It was exactly who I wanted it to be too, if that makes sense. It does to me, so, oh well I guess.
I'm just so happy with where everything is turning.
I'm putting myself above the bad and using my close ones to keep me up.
Which, is working. I can live outside of this house, I can live where ever I choose to lay my hat.
I do have a lot of stuff on my plate I need to work out.
Maybe the Hughes and Kettner Switchblade is out of the question now, because my dad absolutely needs to leave.
Especially with everything that's being thrown at him right now.
So him and I are looking into many other things for me.
Maybe a 50 watt Marshall JCM 800, and I'll just start to use pedals. Something I've wanted to do regardless.
Who knows, I'll just keep searching.
I need $150 - $500 more dollars anyway, so I'll be good for a little while, at least.
Until then, I still have everyone around me.
I guess I was right before, I just needed to stick tight.
Wednesday, January 26, 2011
Wednesday, January 12, 2011
Let me just tell you,
I really didn't think you were that bad until that.
Now you're officially the dramamonger of St. George!
Woot, go you.
That whole thing could have been totally deflated so much easier.
Jared and Mike about had it sorted out but no, you couldn't let it stop there!
Jared tries to apologize (Pretty sure Mike didn't give two shits about either of them, just wanted to dance)
and you have to just keep going on and on. You're the whole reason all of the Salt Lake kids came in.
Which led to Jared getting punched in the face three more times, and almost got him jumped.
I'm not saying the whole situation was your fault, but you sure kept it riding when it wasn't your battle to ride.
And the fact you go up to Ryan and say, "This is what you get for having a hardcore show."
Ahahahah really!? Why the fuck were you even there then? Get the fuck out if you really are going to have that kind of an attitude.
Ryan was stoked on us, and on the show itself. We brought such a huge crowd honestly.
The whole floor was a pit basically because of how many people were into us.
The Salt Lake kids, the kids from here, just everyone was digging it.
Even Ryan told me he wished we could have kept us going since he loved it. I mean, this is the stuff he used to listen to growing up.
I understand why he had to cut our set. 4/9ish songs, is super shitty and I wish we could have played at least one more to end it, but it makes sense. Three total fights, with that one getting way out of hand.
Mike and Jared were handling it, but the second it's about to be taken outside and ended, you haaaad to jump in.
I just feel bad for Ryan. Gogo37 has a chance of being completely shut down, considering there were people who brought alcohol to the venue on New Years (when there were minors in the building) and they didn't have some new license they needed for 2011.
Winterfest was cancelled, which I was soooo beyond stoked for. Rust Belt Lights was coming back, with Stick Up Kids, some other California band, and Rheptar was coming down. I suggested to Richard that they just drop us off it and have it be only the pop-punk bands considering we were the only hardcore band on that show, but no. It's just going to be the whole band you'll move to vibe I guess.
And Ryan warned me, if things get out of hand they'll be stopped.
This just shows why people who can't handle themselves need to not come to shows.
Because everyone made an ass out of themselves.
But, no grudges intended. Jared made a dumb move, but oh well. I feel like that was more heat of the moment, and he did try to break it up. Mike did nothing wrong. You, now you I lost a lot of respect for. Mostly because, you weren't respectful to me. You are the reason we had to stop, because you kept it going. Then were a dick about the entire show in general. Seriously, you should have just gotten the fuck out if you were going to just be a prick about it. And the Salt Lake kids only came in because you did.
So all of this could have been avoided.
Whatever, I just had to get my annoyance out. It's over and done with!
Just, hopefully Gogo doesn't get shut down, and we can find somewhere in Cedar to hold Winterfest at.
Now you're officially the dramamonger of St. George!
Woot, go you.
That whole thing could have been totally deflated so much easier.
Jared and Mike about had it sorted out but no, you couldn't let it stop there!
Jared tries to apologize (Pretty sure Mike didn't give two shits about either of them, just wanted to dance)
and you have to just keep going on and on. You're the whole reason all of the Salt Lake kids came in.
Which led to Jared getting punched in the face three more times, and almost got him jumped.
I'm not saying the whole situation was your fault, but you sure kept it riding when it wasn't your battle to ride.
And the fact you go up to Ryan and say, "This is what you get for having a hardcore show."
Ahahahah really!? Why the fuck were you even there then? Get the fuck out if you really are going to have that kind of an attitude.
Ryan was stoked on us, and on the show itself. We brought such a huge crowd honestly.
The whole floor was a pit basically because of how many people were into us.
The Salt Lake kids, the kids from here, just everyone was digging it.
Even Ryan told me he wished we could have kept us going since he loved it. I mean, this is the stuff he used to listen to growing up.
I understand why he had to cut our set. 4/9ish songs, is super shitty and I wish we could have played at least one more to end it, but it makes sense. Three total fights, with that one getting way out of hand.
Mike and Jared were handling it, but the second it's about to be taken outside and ended, you haaaad to jump in.
I just feel bad for Ryan. Gogo37 has a chance of being completely shut down, considering there were people who brought alcohol to the venue on New Years (when there were minors in the building) and they didn't have some new license they needed for 2011.
Winterfest was cancelled, which I was soooo beyond stoked for. Rust Belt Lights was coming back, with Stick Up Kids, some other California band, and Rheptar was coming down. I suggested to Richard that they just drop us off it and have it be only the pop-punk bands considering we were the only hardcore band on that show, but no. It's just going to be the whole band you'll move to vibe I guess.
And Ryan warned me, if things get out of hand they'll be stopped.
This just shows why people who can't handle themselves need to not come to shows.
Because everyone made an ass out of themselves.
But, no grudges intended. Jared made a dumb move, but oh well. I feel like that was more heat of the moment, and he did try to break it up. Mike did nothing wrong. You, now you I lost a lot of respect for. Mostly because, you weren't respectful to me. You are the reason we had to stop, because you kept it going. Then were a dick about the entire show in general. Seriously, you should have just gotten the fuck out if you were going to just be a prick about it. And the Salt Lake kids only came in because you did.
So all of this could have been avoided.
Whatever, I just had to get my annoyance out. It's over and done with!
Just, hopefully Gogo doesn't get shut down, and we can find somewhere in Cedar to hold Winterfest at.
Saturday, January 8, 2011
Today;
Has already started off fantastically.
Took a really great hike with Jordon, saw some truly beautiful and intriguing stuff.
As well as talked about some pretty intriguing things.
I've been getting into a lot of deep conversations lately.
Admitting my misanthrope, religious, and just overall feelings towards life to some of my most closest friends.
I find it funny how many people don't know that I have misanthrope ideals and whatnot.
Anyways; I'm playing tonight with my band, Fever Dreams, at this really hip venue called Gogo37.
It's on 37 E. St. George Boulevard. That's why it's Gogo37! Ahahaha, I found that so funny when I first realized it.
Besides that; Warren Jeffs dropped so we are now headlining and The Personalities are opening.
Hopefully there is a good outcome and we can have some real fun tonight.
We're going all out and have two new songs, so it's going to be a great time to get pissed.
I'm stoked.
Oh, and I get to hear my new setup live for the first time tonight, I can't wait.
Took a really great hike with Jordon, saw some truly beautiful and intriguing stuff.
As well as talked about some pretty intriguing things.
I've been getting into a lot of deep conversations lately.
Admitting my misanthrope, religious, and just overall feelings towards life to some of my most closest friends.
I find it funny how many people don't know that I have misanthrope ideals and whatnot.
Anyways; I'm playing tonight with my band, Fever Dreams, at this really hip venue called Gogo37.
It's on 37 E. St. George Boulevard. That's why it's Gogo37! Ahahaha, I found that so funny when I first realized it.
Besides that; Warren Jeffs dropped so we are now headlining and The Personalities are opening.
Hopefully there is a good outcome and we can have some real fun tonight.
We're going all out and have two new songs, so it's going to be a great time to get pissed.
I'm stoked.
Oh, and I get to hear my new setup live for the first time tonight, I can't wait.
Wednesday, January 5, 2011
Monday, January 3, 2011
Finally!
My pops and I just barely finished saudering a new jack onto my bass.
Then I tightened up everything that needed to be tightened, and cleaned everything that need to be cleaned.
It just feels so good to have it back in my hands in tip-top shape.
Then hearing it through my new rig finally.. Ahhhhhhh. I'm in heaven.
Thank you God for everything you have blessed me with.
This just adds on to me feeling like I'm livin' the good life.
Hallelujah!
Oh, and I cut my hair pretty short.
It feels so good, I should have done this a long time ago.
Then I tightened up everything that needed to be tightened, and cleaned everything that need to be cleaned.
It just feels so good to have it back in my hands in tip-top shape.
Then hearing it through my new rig finally.. Ahhhhhhh. I'm in heaven.
Thank you God for everything you have blessed me with.
This just adds on to me feeling like I'm livin' the good life.
Hallelujah!
Oh, and I cut my hair pretty short.
It feels so good, I should have done this a long time ago.
Sunday, January 2, 2011
Everything.
Is starting to look up.
It really is.
New Years was pretty good. Saw some good stuff over at Gogo, got a delicious meal over at Denny's and 'bout got some nook-nook from the waitress until I smelt that smoker breath! Ahahahaha.
Then hit up Mauricio's for a dance party, sadly Luke and his pretty sweet little brother had to go home.
But we finished off strong with "Four Brothers" which is such a good movie, even the second time around on a scratched disk.
Chris, Mauricio and I then proceeded to bromance it up in Mau'cio's bed.
Today, Zane's birthday party!
Walked on over, everyone was there it seemed. It was really refreshing to see everyone.
Talked, laughed, I ate a shit ton of cake. Literally, SOOOOO much. More than anyone else.
Jordon came over while we were all hanging, laughed it up some more.
Then Jordan, Jordon, Trent and I went and got some coffee, and I got hot cocoa (which I made so delicious.).
Then we came back, partied it up some more.
Got a little nook-nook from a very beautiful woman thanks to Joe, but he only did so much.
Surprisingly enough, I asserted myself. I made something happen! Sure it was all just in good fun, but I sure still feel accomplished.
Oh, I forgot to mention; before the nook-nook, I threw up all that cake and hot cocoa.
Don't worry though, I made sure I washed my mouth out with Listerine and hit up some gum.
Overall, everyone made me feel really good. This was a great night.
I really reconnected with some old friends, and I can tell I might actually start hanging out with these guys again, it was a blast.
I even got some deep insight. I received Reno's side of the whole Sydnee/Kara thing, and Jordan's feelings on something large with Jenny.
It was just refreshing to have people still feel trust in me and people confiding in me again.
I'm starting to feel less and less lonely as these days go by, and frankly; I'm incredibly happy with where my life is right now.
I just fixed my power amp on my rig, so I was able to finally play my new baby in and out, and I love it.
It sounds so good, so obviously I'm incredibly grateful towards my father.
I'm so stoked for my two shows coming up.
We're playing with Warren Jeffs this upcoming Saturday and I'm really pumped to play at Gogo.
Then Rust Belt Lights on the twenty-second. I'd be stoked for that even if we weren't playing, but luckily we are and it's going to be a blast.
Let's see who shows up though.
OH! And my second wireless is on it's way. Paid for with the money from my XBox, which I'm glad Zane is loving so much.
I just, don't know what could make me happier right now!
I'm just out to enjoy myself, and it feels great.
Sticking tight, it's what I have to do.
I'm just living the good life it feels.
I just really couldn't be happier.
For once, I don't have negative emotion to force out through blogging.
I'm just genuinely happy, about everything!
Oh, and now I have the possibly oppertunity to work in Oregon during the summer.
I'm fucking ecstatic over just the possibly chance that I can.
I just love this life I'm living.
"My closing speech,
Fuck your world, I'll take mine."
- When We Stand on Each Other We Block Out The Sun by Fireworks.
It really is.
New Years was pretty good. Saw some good stuff over at Gogo, got a delicious meal over at Denny's and 'bout got some nook-nook from the waitress until I smelt that smoker breath! Ahahahaha.
Then hit up Mauricio's for a dance party, sadly Luke and his pretty sweet little brother had to go home.
But we finished off strong with "Four Brothers" which is such a good movie, even the second time around on a scratched disk.
Chris, Mauricio and I then proceeded to bromance it up in Mau'cio's bed.
Today, Zane's birthday party!
Walked on over, everyone was there it seemed. It was really refreshing to see everyone.
Talked, laughed, I ate a shit ton of cake. Literally, SOOOOO much. More than anyone else.
Jordon came over while we were all hanging, laughed it up some more.
Then Jordan, Jordon, Trent and I went and got some coffee, and I got hot cocoa (which I made so delicious.).
Then we came back, partied it up some more.
Got a little nook-nook from a very beautiful woman thanks to Joe, but he only did so much.
Surprisingly enough, I asserted myself. I made something happen! Sure it was all just in good fun, but I sure still feel accomplished.
Oh, I forgot to mention; before the nook-nook, I threw up all that cake and hot cocoa.
Don't worry though, I made sure I washed my mouth out with Listerine and hit up some gum.
Overall, everyone made me feel really good. This was a great night.
I really reconnected with some old friends, and I can tell I might actually start hanging out with these guys again, it was a blast.
I even got some deep insight. I received Reno's side of the whole Sydnee/Kara thing, and Jordan's feelings on something large with Jenny.
It was just refreshing to have people still feel trust in me and people confiding in me again.
I'm starting to feel less and less lonely as these days go by, and frankly; I'm incredibly happy with where my life is right now.
I just fixed my power amp on my rig, so I was able to finally play my new baby in and out, and I love it.
It sounds so good, so obviously I'm incredibly grateful towards my father.
I'm so stoked for my two shows coming up.
We're playing with Warren Jeffs this upcoming Saturday and I'm really pumped to play at Gogo.
Then Rust Belt Lights on the twenty-second. I'd be stoked for that even if we weren't playing, but luckily we are and it's going to be a blast.
Let's see who shows up though.
OH! And my second wireless is on it's way. Paid for with the money from my XBox, which I'm glad Zane is loving so much.
I just, don't know what could make me happier right now!
I'm just out to enjoy myself, and it feels great.
Sticking tight, it's what I have to do.
I'm just living the good life it feels.
I just really couldn't be happier.
For once, I don't have negative emotion to force out through blogging.
I'm just genuinely happy, about everything!
Oh, and now I have the possibly oppertunity to work in Oregon during the summer.
I'm fucking ecstatic over just the possibly chance that I can.
I just love this life I'm living.
"My closing speech,
Fuck your world, I'll take mine."
- When We Stand on Each Other We Block Out The Sun by Fireworks.
Friday, December 31, 2010
Fraudulent.
You are
A fraud.
A liar.
A deciever.
A cheat.
A con.
A misleader.
A skunk.
A varmint.
A wretch.
A deluder.
A perjurer.
A felon.
A sinner.
You fake mother-fucker.
A fraud.
A liar.
A deciever.
A cheat.
A con.
A misleader.
A skunk.
A varmint.
A wretch.
A deluder.
A perjurer.
A felon.
A sinner.
You fake mother-fucker.
Thursday, December 30, 2010
Wednesday, December 29, 2010
Logan Circle - The Wonder Years.
The Wonder Years and Fireworks are putting me in such a good mood lately.
I'm afraid that we're wasting away
'cause we're all sleeping in circles
or talking shit in diners
and I've been better, but I'm feeling okay
I'm not even sad anymore
I'm just so tired most nights
And I've been drowning my sorrows
In Lucky Charms and Soy Milk
These are the things that keep me sane
Getting pretzels at midnight behind my house
at the price you, can't complain
We set of fireworks
Piss off the whole neighborhood
They keep me up having sex anyway,
seems much worse.
We'll set off a few more
Maybe I'll blow off a piece of this city I hate.
I'm afraid that we're wasting away
'cause we're all sleeping in circles
or talking shit in diners
and I've been better, but I'm feeling okay
I'm not even sad anymore
I'm just so tired most nights
And I've been drowning my sorrows
In Lucky Charms and Soy Milk
These are the things that keep me sane
Getting pretzels at midnight behind my house
at the price you, can't complain
We set of fireworks
Piss off the whole neighborhood
They keep me up having sex anyway,
seems much worse.
We'll set off a few more
Maybe I'll blow off a piece of this city I hate.
Everyone keeps asking me if I'm okay.
My dad said on the phone last night that I've been acting weird.
He knows about what happened but not full detail.
I don't know think I've been acting weird.
I've just been avoiding being alone.
I've slept at one of my best friend's houses the past two nights, Mauricio's to be specific.
I know if I'm alone I'll think and just develop a deeper depression and find myself lost in my head.
For some reason everyone already knows that everything changed and keeps asking.
I don't feel like I'm acting different at all.
But everyone keeps asking about everything, despite me wanting to keep my mind off it.
But it's not their fault, they don't know and they just worry about me.
It feels really good to have such great friends, actually.
The littlest things about myself seem to be getting on my nerves it seems.
Seeing things on the computer. I think I may just ex-communicate myself from Facebook for a bit.
I'll just stick with Tumblr, Tumblr keeps me sane for the most part. It keeps my mind interested in so many different things that I don't have to worry about anything.
But, I just found myself growing incredibly angry over the fact that my power amplifier still having a terrible hum. For what the fuck reason, I have no clue.
It's not that big of deal, but for seem reason I grew incredibly irritable over it.
I'm not a dick in person yet. Well, I guess I always have been, but no more than usual.
Maybe I should just turn into an ass hole.
I'm already part way there. I'm in no senses nice, so maybe I should just be a full on prick about everything.
I've already started developing a sense of lowering my trust factor.
So only a little longer until I'm just another useless shithead.
Eh, who knows if I'll really do that. It still feels good to put out the idea.
Either way, I don't know how to hold down a front.
More and more questions pop up, but maybe the more that people learn, the less I have to worry.
I'm just over steady things. I've been over everything in this city.
I'm just sticking tight to my friends and family, because that's about all I have now that so many people that I thought I could always count on have discontinued me.
Yeah that's it.
I just have to remember to stick tight.
Because I have the very best bestfriends in the entire world.
Fuck everything else.
He knows about what happened but not full detail.
I don't know think I've been acting weird.
I've just been avoiding being alone.
I've slept at one of my best friend's houses the past two nights, Mauricio's to be specific.
I know if I'm alone I'll think and just develop a deeper depression and find myself lost in my head.
For some reason everyone already knows that everything changed and keeps asking.
I don't feel like I'm acting different at all.
But everyone keeps asking about everything, despite me wanting to keep my mind off it.
But it's not their fault, they don't know and they just worry about me.
It feels really good to have such great friends, actually.
The littlest things about myself seem to be getting on my nerves it seems.
Seeing things on the computer. I think I may just ex-communicate myself from Facebook for a bit.
I'll just stick with Tumblr, Tumblr keeps me sane for the most part. It keeps my mind interested in so many different things that I don't have to worry about anything.
But, I just found myself growing incredibly angry over the fact that my power amplifier still having a terrible hum. For what the fuck reason, I have no clue.
It's not that big of deal, but for seem reason I grew incredibly irritable over it.
I'm not a dick in person yet. Well, I guess I always have been, but no more than usual.
Maybe I should just turn into an ass hole.
I'm already part way there. I'm in no senses nice, so maybe I should just be a full on prick about everything.
I've already started developing a sense of lowering my trust factor.
So only a little longer until I'm just another useless shithead.
Eh, who knows if I'll really do that. It still feels good to put out the idea.
Either way, I don't know how to hold down a front.
More and more questions pop up, but maybe the more that people learn, the less I have to worry.
I'm just over steady things. I've been over everything in this city.
I'm just sticking tight to my friends and family, because that's about all I have now that so many people that I thought I could always count on have discontinued me.
Yeah that's it.
I just have to remember to stick tight.
Because I have the very best bestfriends in the entire world.
Fuck everything else.
Sunday, December 26, 2010
I want something to go right and stay right for once.
Everything is just up and down and up and down and I'm fucking sick of it.
I'm fucking sick of sitting here writing all this down for no one to fucking read.
I keep smacking my phone on the ground, I'm just waiting for it to break honestly.
I need to just lay down.
Wipe my mind.
I'm fucking sick of sitting here writing all this down for no one to fucking read.
I keep smacking my phone on the ground, I'm just waiting for it to break honestly.
I need to just lay down.
Wipe my mind.
What the fuck.
I about broke my phone just now.
Woo.
Fuck this shit.
SJLG"KL:SHDL:GBHSDOGS:LDSGBLKJBHG:LKJSBHG:LKHGB:LKSDJGBL:KSJDGJVLK
Fuck all of this shit.
And I was actually starting to feel better, as fucked up and weird as the way I went about making me feel better was, it worked.
But this,
I thought I was just going to get told all of the things I did wrong.
I was legitimately looking forward to it.
I love being told things like that for some odd reason.
Because it means I have something to improve on.
What the fuck am I supposed to do with this?
Woo.
Fuck this shit.
SJLG"KL:SHDL:GBHSDOGS:LDSGBLKJBHG:LKJSBHG:LKHGB:LKSDJGBL:KSJDGJVLK
Fuck all of this shit.
And I was actually starting to feel better, as fucked up and weird as the way I went about making me feel better was, it worked.
But this,
I thought I was just going to get told all of the things I did wrong.
I was legitimately looking forward to it.
I love being told things like that for some odd reason.
Because it means I have something to improve on.
What the fuck am I supposed to do with this?
Human beings are the epitome of everything terrible in this world.
Fuck all these emotions inside of me.
Fuck all of the things that humans can actually do.
I need to take a trip up to Carson City, see everything that I haven't seen in about six years.
Yeah, yeah. That sounds, really great actually.
Something actually sounds really great for once.
Get the hell out of here.
Fuck all these emotions inside of me.
Fuck all of the things that humans can actually do.
I need to take a trip up to Carson City, see everything that I haven't seen in about six years.
Yeah, yeah. That sounds, really great actually.
Something actually sounds really great for once.
Get the hell out of here.
Saturday, December 25, 2010
So this is looking like a good Christmas.
Despite everything that happened yesterday, this was a great Christmas.
Probably one of my most favored ever.
I'm glad I was able to eventually defuse things yesterday. I think that may have been what caused things to turn around so well.
I'm stoked on everything I got obviously.
Hartke VX810 8x10 cabinet, exactly what I needed and basically the only thing I really asked for.
My new feather oxfords, I definitely needed some new shoes and these are looking mighty classy.
A new generation Ipod nano, I wasn't expecting this at all. Oh how I love my sister.
A toaster Oven, definitely was not expecting this either. Going to love this, even after I move out!
Miscellaneous other things, I'll definitely enjoy, such as my Target gift card and my new tuner.
But what's even better than all of that, is having a nice care-free day with the family.
Lately it wasn't feeling like Christmas, but this turned it all around.
Hooray for today, I love my family.
Probably one of my most favored ever.
I'm glad I was able to eventually defuse things yesterday. I think that may have been what caused things to turn around so well.
I'm stoked on everything I got obviously.
Hartke VX810 8x10 cabinet, exactly what I needed and basically the only thing I really asked for.
My new feather oxfords, I definitely needed some new shoes and these are looking mighty classy.
A new generation Ipod nano, I wasn't expecting this at all. Oh how I love my sister.
A toaster Oven, definitely was not expecting this either. Going to love this, even after I move out!
Miscellaneous other things, I'll definitely enjoy, such as my Target gift card and my new tuner.
But what's even better than all of that, is having a nice care-free day with the family.
Lately it wasn't feeling like Christmas, but this turned it all around.
Hooray for today, I love my family.
Friday, December 24, 2010
Merry Fucking Christmas.
I can't fucking wait to get away from you and this place.
I can already feel that I'm not going to keep in touch that well,
it's not like you'll care anyway though.
I obviously do nothing for you, right?
How melodramatic am I?
I don't even know what I'm doing with my future.
But who honestly gives one fuck how I end up?
Maybe I can just be some old hermit in Salt Lake City or Oregon.
I guess it depends if I can even find work.
Regardless of all of that, I'll be happy to get out of here.
I can already feel that I'm not going to keep in touch that well,
it's not like you'll care anyway though.
I obviously do nothing for you, right?
How melodramatic am I?
I don't even know what I'm doing with my future.
But who honestly gives one fuck how I end up?
Maybe I can just be some old hermit in Salt Lake City or Oregon.
I guess it depends if I can even find work.
Regardless of all of that, I'll be happy to get out of here.
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